Goodbye

So I'm leaving for treatment today. I won't be posting for a while .. anywhere from 30 to 90 days. But I'll be back, I'll be back with a healthier mindest and a happier mentality. I promise. :}

So here's one last sweet post, to kick off my new approach to life:

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I'll Take a Deep Deep Breath

Thank you for all your lovely comments and support. I was so touched and it really does give me the strength to get better. I want to get better, I've been trying my hardest. I don't want to die. I don't want to struggle with this for the rest of my life. I know I'm going to have to take a break from blogging during the time I spend at the treatment center, but I'll come back. And when I do, I'll be healthy again.

Your kind words and wishes have made a difference. Thank you SO much, I can't imagine life without the blogging community.

On a positive note, I have purchased the cutest print! :D

Visit her shop here

So Sorry

I'm not in the mountains. Nor am I at home. Instead, I'm in a hospital hooked up to a machine. My heart rate is 40 beats for minute and I weighed in at 90 pounds. I'm at risk at dieing from a fatal arrhythmia. I don't want to keep this a secret anymore from my readers, I suffer from Anorexia Nervosa. Am I ashamed? No. I have vowed to get better, and I will. After my heart level raises to a stable range, I will be discharged and then I will go live in an inpatient treatment center.

I love you all.

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Tidbits of My World

Yesterday I took a little trip to Michaels and got some goodies!

Some sweet file folders {har har har}, sushi erasers, these cardboard cupcake things, Easter cookie cutters {I'm officially collecting cookie cutters now, so if you have an unwanted cookie cutters, I'll gladly take them off your hands .. really .. it's no hassle}, and icing colors!

Here's a little update on my artwork ..

Thee Ice Cream Parlor. This isn't anything I plan to sell as it is on notebook paper and in my sketchbook.

I like how it turned out. :}

Here's a sneak preview of what I'm working on ..

And finally, I'm writing down all my recipes and such as so:

My mom is convinced I shoud make my own cookbook with little drawings like this haha. I just might take her up on that offer .. OH! Or maybe I could create a zine? But not with my recipes, it would be a collaberation with a bunch of other cooks and bakers. Hm ..

Why am I writing down recipes you may be thinking? Well I've decided to take up baking! Yes, it seems reasonable considering how many dessert posts I make dedicated to the art of sugar. My mother has been really supportive; buying me the ingredients I need and even signing me up for a cake making class! {THEY'RE ONLY SIX BUCKS A CLASS AT MICHAELS!}. I'm really excited, I have so many ideas. HEHE! Oh and yesterday, to kick off my career in baking, yeah right, I made some funfetti cupcakes! As you could probably guess from my illustrations ..

I think I did a beautiful job for my first time! :} Not to brag or anything .. anyway these are basically my testing cupcakes. Either today, or some other time as my mountain trip may interfer with this plan, I'm going to make a bunch of different frostings and just play around with techinques and styles and flavors. I can't wait! I wish I could send all my lovely readers a cupcake .. <3

I Knew You Loved Me Then

I'm going up to the mountains.

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Lips Like Morphine

My outfit from Valentines day. Yes everything is from Forever 21. Suprised?

I just went over to my friends and we watched Love Happens and The Time Traveler's Wife and stayed up till three in the morning. :}

What did you do on v-day?

Would You Please Take Me Away From This Place

I understand I will not be able to post anymore valentine treats anymore after this day so here's one last one:

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