Wednesday, February 17, 2010

So Sorry

I'm not in the mountains. Nor am I at home. Instead, I'm in a hospital hooked up to a machine. My heart rate is 40 beats for minute and I weighed in at 90 pounds. I'm at risk at dieing from a fatal arrhythmia. I don't want to keep this a secret anymore from my readers, I suffer from Anorexia Nervosa. Am I ashamed? No. I have vowed to get better, and I will. After my heart level raises to a stable range, I will be discharged and then I will go live in an inpatient treatment center.

I love you all.

 <3

8 comments:

Chelsea Nicole. said...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I am always here to talk. Take as much time as you need, all of your lovely readers are supporting you 110% ;)

You are beautiful no matter what you look like, as shown in the lovely posts that you make.

I hope your recovery goes well.

XXOO
Chelsea Nicole.

Megan Chérie said...

I wish you absolutely nothing but the very, very best & I hope your recovery goes well. I definitely agree with what Chelsea Nicole said <3

xo, megan ;*

borderbasher said...

i would have guessed that a bit. all the best in recovery! i hope we'll hear good news from you soon <3

blue eyed night owl said...

I am so sorry to hear that. I'm sure you will beat this thing. I wish you all the best and all the strength and I hope that you will meet some amazing people in that center, because I wish you all the fun in the world too!

Take care.

lavelle said...

Thinking of you. The first step to recovery is accepting your problem and resolving to deal with it, so you are already on the road to recovery! Good luck with everything. I would miss your posts, but if you need to take a break from blogging, you should know that your readers are all thinking of you and will wait patiently for your return! xx

Thelma said...

Cassidy it hurts my heart to know what you are going through. And I want you to know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers for a fast and healthly recovery. I always look forward to looking at your blog. You are such a talented person and you are beautiful always remember that.

daisychain said...

Hang in there sweetheart, I've only just found your blog and already care about you a lot.
Concentrate on getting yourself well and able to live the life you deserve xxx

katrina said...

i just read your more recent posts and am relieved to know that you've stabilized. visiting you online is always a joy and i will miss you much. can't wait for your return.