Monday, January 30, 2012

Insight

          I can't believe it's been a month since I last posted. I really have no excuse. Even though I've been busy with school and work and all my other responsibilities, I have purposely avoided posting on here just because I didn't have the energy. I don't want blogging to become a burden to me. I love it and I just need to get back into the habit.
          Although these are from a month ago, here are my adventures in Oregon in picture form. All the pictures of myself are taken by Kalaija and all the pictures of her are taken by me. I've had a lot of camera issues lately so that's why I didn't get to take that many pictures.. my camera broke the day before I left so I took my friend's camera but her battery died. I used one of Kalaija's old cameras and I took sixty pictures on it only to discover that the camera is broken. So none of them came out. I'm still a little upset about that but I realize that I can't do anything about it.. At least Kalaija got good pictures! 
          I've been experimenting with my digital camera just because I was forced to. Although I prefer film, I realize that I can take beautiful pictures with digital. Fortunately, I now have a working film camera so I plan to be taking a lot of pictures. Lately, I've been exploding with creativity. I've been watching films I adore, discovering beautiful new music, going on adventures with my wonderful friends, and writing more. I find myself distracted and unable to concentrate at school because I have so many ideas. I've been day dreaming more and fantasizing about faraway places and the possibilities of the future. Although school is a really big priority for me, I'm beginning to question why I'm torturing myself. I love learning and lately I've been resenting school because of all the stress and pressure that comes along with it. I'm going to art school. Academics aren't as important as artistic skill so I don't know why I've been pushing myself beyond my limits. I'm gradually learning that my grades don't define me, that I shouldn't let my negativity consume me, that I am deserving of happiness, and that I need to focus on art more because it brings so much joy into my life. 


11 comments:

tara said...

so many lovely pictures! kudos.
and just looking at the ones with you guys in the snow makes me feel cold, lol.

nancy said...

beautiful photos! I hope you learn how to cut yourself some slack... (please share your secrets!)

Charlotte said...

I like each one more than the last. What adventures the two of you had!

Alice said...

These photos look like dreamscapes <3 And you both look so beautiful.

Amber said...

this photos are just dreamy. Sounds like you have been one busy gal. Grade are important but they certainly dont define you. Best of luck with all your artists endeavors.

Blue Eyed Night Owl said...

Great pictures, as always;)

Sorry to hear about the film. I once went to Turkey and when we were leaving and checking the hotel I opened the fridge to check if we left anything, right at that moment my mom said "No, I checked the fridge already", turned out she didn't properly and we left some film in there. It still bugs me haha;)

Anyway, I get how you feel about the grades. It's hard to relax. And I had the problem that I could either learn for a test, or not. I couldn't study just a little to aim for an ok grade, because you just never know what they might ask.... So glad that's over. It'll be over for you too soon;) And it's great you're so inspired.

Magda said...

S.O B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L! Really lovely pictures, especially these two: http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Dv5WBnFMiRk/TydBk70Y74I/AAAAAAAAD-U/VIj7tkaN1pc/s640/oregon+%2842%29.jpg
http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-tnoJb7UQarQ/TydBuud5heI/AAAAAAAAD-k/WpKGtQc_Tp0/s640/oregon+%28153%29.JPG

Imogen said...

So many beautiful pictures here. it's good to see that you are psting on your blog again too. I totally agree with you regarding what you said about school. It's great for you to focus on what you like.

Mª Ángeles & Alba said...

beautiful photos... as always

The Golden Waters said...

Magnifiques photos! :O ♥

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