Friday, December 10, 2010

Food For Thought

As I learn more, I feel hungry for more knowledge. I wish to know it all. I wish to spend my days reading and researching, feeding that ravishing drive in the quest for wisdom. My aptitude allows me to excel in my studies. It's my proclivity to want something more, or something greater than what I already have. But can the pursuit of knowledge lead to our demise? 

 I've always questioned how understanding and knowledge is capable of corrupting human minds. I have always been fascinated with the brain of a child. Childhood is the essence of innocence and naivety. They are ignorant, but they are not stupid. They are usually blissfully unaware of the corruptness and the harsh reality of the world. Even though I place great value on education and intelligence, I can't help but admire children. Through my volunteer work at preschools and watching my five year old bother grow up, I am always amazed by how intuitive children are with their minds and their bodies.

 As people grow older and go to school and become educated, they are no longer ignorant. Eventually, everyone is exposed to the negativity that exists in civilization. Within civilization, there is corruption: media, lies, war, selfishness, power, wealth, death, murder, crimes, sin, ect. As we grow older, the magic that existed in our childhood world is no longer a reality, but a fable. We argue that any childhood fantasy we may have had does not exist by using logic or backing it up with factual evidence. The imagination that used to flourish when we were all younger slowly starts to diminish. There are many people who get sucked into the world's negativity and lies, and that's all they focus on. Sometimes it's hard to see past these faults but there is always room for forgiveness.

Growing up isn't a sad thing. It's just a different lifestyle. Childhood is precious, and it's not to be wasted away by wishing one was older. The world has a balance between the good and the bad, the negative and the positive. It can be beautiful, joyous, bittersweet, angry, and sad. It can be everything and it can be nothing. I've experienced both sides. I used to want to die and leave the world and everyone in it behind me. I was blinded by my misery and sorrow. But through recovery, I have experienced moments where everything was so beautiful and life was so kind. And having both perspectives made me appreciate and allowed me to embrace every quality of the world. I have accepted our society's flaws and imperfections as well as it's glories and gifts.

I wake up and i feel alone.
I miss all the little things
ice cream
349/365

This is my mind.

22 comments:

ching said...

oh how i loved reading this. i agree, kids today wish to be older but they don't realize how wonderful what they have now..

Vicky said...

Cute photos. Loved reading this as well x

Le garçon avec les lunettes, said...

The images on your blog are so inspiring! Great blog!

Finder said...

lovely post!!!

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Mary Lee said...

ahh i really love these pictures, so gorgeous!

www.marylee31.blogspot.com

daisychain said...

this is an incredible post darling x

Maddie M. said...

This was beautiful to read.
I couldn't agree more. I've gone from what felt like optimistic bliss to cynical pessimism. It's terrible. And I keep fighting to go back, but it's quite difficult to return to that state after so long.
xoxo

Meera said...

What a beautiful post! I almost cried! <3

xx
Meera

sacramento said...

I am so glad to have inpired you to wear your bolero again.
Love your beautiful dreamy photos.
Un abrazo guapa.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

StickyKitten said...

This is such a well written post! You are a terrific writer. This topic is something that every adult can relate to. I like the images you chose to express your words. xo

Ella said...

I adore your posts and this one captured childhood so well. The ice cream brings back memories of summer days x

natureswaysphotography.blogspot.com

Spence. said...

You write so beautifully, I amdire everything you just said.

I still hold onto childhood fantasies hoplessly, I think the fairytales I read as a child gave me unreal expectations for the world...

You really are an incredible writer, I hope you get your book published some day ;)
x

Emily said...

I really, really love this post.

It nails exactly what I have been trying to pin down for awhile- that dichotomy between ignorance and stupidity associated with children, the desire to remain innocent and the acceptance that we can't. I work as an actor, and so often I get down on myself for not being able to capture childish joy or naivetee, but your post reminded me that it's okay. I've lived through things, which have exposed me to the negative, and changed me. And that's not bad. It's just different.

Thank you, this post made my day.

~Emily
http://travelandtoile.blogspot.com

Barbara said...

beautiful and inspiring post

Courtney K. said...

This is so inspiring to read. And lovely images as well. Xoxo.

paperwhales said...

"As people grow older and go to school and become educated, they are no longer ignorant." I couldn't agree more. College has taught me so much, but it really saddens me to still meet people who have a college education, but still be ignorant to the racism and sexism that still exists today, as well as many other issues. The list of inequalities seems endless.



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JeanneS said...

you are so right about childhood, Ive caught myself thinking how awesome would be to be older and then I see how many times older people smile and I thank god I am still 17 :)

MMM said...

it is wonderful..thanks for sharing this with us..I have tha same thoghts and it is incredible how u write them.


bisous

danica said...

great post - i love the combination of photographs and text.

kirstyb said...

such a lovely post and now i want ice cream x

the gorgeous said...

precious moments ;)

Juliet said...

Beautiful post!

juliet xxx